SO…
…earlier in the week, I got out of bed and went outside to find that someone had crashed into my car’s front end. Not enough to write the thing off, but enough to make me wish that they had.
I’m finding it really hard to think ‘forgiving’ thoughts towards the (unknown) driver who did it, and then left without leaving a note (beyond the single green P plate that was left behind at the scene). I have to admit that I feel similarly annoyed at the people who violated my first (and beloved) car ‘Brown’ (a 1982 Corolla), while he was left alone overnight on the side of the Princes Highway at Waterfall a few years ago.
Why am I so ‘protective’ towards my posessions? Shouldn’t I just accept my losses and enjoy the fact that I’m being humbled again, while remembering the things in life that really matter?
Because I find that hard to do. I want to hold a grudge, and be angry.
I watch Deadwood and think that the characters aren’t brutal enough with the people who cross them. I watch The Sopranos and think that Tony is really quite justified in his anger. I’m finding myself tempted to watch Fox news (that’s not actually true, I would only watch Fox news if Chuck Norris was the full time anchor, and someone paid for my cable tv subscription).
I think I’m in all kinds of trouble.
October 20th, 2008 at 8:20 am
It’s really hard to accept humility in a situation like this when it costs you so much money to get there! The worst thing about situation induced anger is that you will always be able to find someone to help you justify it! I, myself, suffer from not accepting humility through injustice very well! Something I need to work on! I have this inbuilt thing that people should respect other people! Oh, well, come Lord Jesus come I say!!!
October 22nd, 2008 at 10:44 am
By the way, for anyone thinking that I’m in serious danger of becoming a redneck – don’t worry too much, I was just blowing off a bit of steam the other night with this post.